Me versus the Paper

I have so many things I want to draw but I'm just using the exhaustion excuse not to :| In fact if I think about it, if motivation is strong, I can draw under any circumstances with this mind-over-matter power. Like, stand a heat wave while in front of a pc for 3 hours straight (I used to do it)

I think motivation is the problem. I don't have it, including the thought of having to line artworks because a manual colored output does not do digital justice. I also do not have a wacom...it could be my first decision, but my pc is choking with file overload, so I opted with the macbook first (to spare the important files...)which I'm still paying ._.

Could be the hours of rendering with a mouse is starting to sicken me x_x I do it at work. Our tools are not exactly advanced, no wacoms and our photoshop is not the latest...because for some reason, we dont have a tech support system. Seems our boss thinks the FTP is the only technical thing to manage, which he manage by doing it himself...so, less employee to pay o_O? The good side is, no website banning~

Oh back to the topic, that work thing, it could be the one killing my urge to render on pc ._. I mean, if I manage to sneak/fix my camphone one could see HOW MUCH I USE THE MOUSE. Seriously, my clicking finger is so marked on that thing. The coating of the mouse on certain portions have WORN OFF